Cry, The Beloved Country – by Alan Paton is a book we all read when we were littlies at school. I don’t remember the whole story I remember that Reverend Khumalo has to make a trip to Johannesburg and this is such a huge task, travelling to the big city. The whole story revolves around this city.
It’s my city, this is has been home since 1975….
I saw a beautiful photo taken by a photographer friend, captured in winter, from quite a distance. So beautifully captured, and he gave me permission to paint from his photo.
I loved painting this, the winter grass is painted over gold leaf and this gives the painting such a beautiful shine.
Painting this gave me a yearning desire to read my old school book again and to see Johannesburg through Reverend Khumalo’s eyes. I need to find an old copy of the book somewhere.
Power lines are a bit like stick dinosaurs, don’t you think? I don’t know why I like them, what is it that attracts me, I just know I do like them, a lot! When we take long drives I always admire the scenery and the elegant looking stick dinosaurs.
I think photographers like them too, it is so easy to find beautiful landscape and sunset photos with one or two power lines dominating the composition of the photo.
Who would think that something that can ruin a perfect landscape composition, or something ugly could be made to look beautiful. We might prefer they were not there….but they do offer a beautiful symmetry in our vast landscapes and I always take a few pics.
This was painted from one of my cell phone photos – a trip down to Cape Town with my boy ♥
In March I blogged about my new role at work and leap of faith. It was a brave move into the unknown…Know Your Worth
It’s nearly the end of the year and here I am, I’m still in the gallery. I can’t believe I have survived this long. I didn’t doubt myself but somehow, I just thought that I would quietly disappear back into the mundane old self.
I’m still there, I’m still braving this double role (double hating as they call it)
What I have learned so far…a list because I like making lists…
More money – nope not in my case, it’s like two for the price of one. Two jobs one salary
Security – definitely, when we could be faced with losing our jobs due to cuts having two is like having a piggy bank
Freedom – this role gives me some emotional benefits, sense of belonging, not just being wall paper
New skills – yes! I am always learning in both roles, obviously more in the new role as it is all still a bit unfamiliar. But most definitely lots of new skills and learning for me
Confidence – in myself, yes! There is that great feeling of accomplishment. I am doing something that will push me further in a space that I love
Time – time flies by quickly and I need more hours to get to just half of my to-do-list. Honestly speaking I never had time when I had just the one role. So, how does that work?
Stress – dealing with two completely different jobs and people at the same time can be overwhelming. It’s more overwhelming than stressful. I get to scream, and I can eat a whole packet of chips in the office with no one saying a thing because no one is watching. Which is great!
No extra money – nope I don’t get extra money
Recognition – I’m still waiting for it
Tips for making it work
Protecting both jobs, trying not to let one role intrude on the other one
Quality of performance from me the person they know in both roles
Regular check-ups with the two bosses (more like 3) and the special people in my work life that know the challenges I face and keep me sane ♥
How do you answer when someone asks you: “What’s on your mind?” How do you answer when someone is trying to get all deep and philosophical and asks: “But how are you, really?”
I never know what to say and my reply depends on who is asking, why they are asking, and how much time & energy and emotion I want to put into it.
Saying exactly what I mean isn’t something I am good at. Sometimes it’s yes just to please someone else and end my ordeal quickly. Sometimes I say I understand when I really don’t have a clue, but I say it just so I don’t look ignorant. And sometimes I just hold back from saying anything at all.
But there are some very good reasons for not holding back and for actually speaking your mind. You could just get what you want without sounding demanding. If you are being asked maybe it’s a good thing to say what your needs are, you might just end up being happier.
When someone asked me today; “what’s on your mind?” I simply replied potato, potato, ching chong tomato only because that was the last silly thing I had seen on Facebook. This didn’t solve anything but it did make both of us happier. We burst into laughter, the moment broke my frown and we both burst into spontaneous conversation about everything frustrating & annoying at work and also about everything funny & fuzzy in our lives.
So….moral of the story is, if you are going to be real and really say what is on your mind or give some weird answer like potato, potato, ching chong tomato that is ok as long as you end up feeling lighter and happier.
Or you could just say porn – that should stop people from asking!