Stick Dinosaurs

Power lines are a bit like stick dinosaurs, don’t you think? I don’t know why I like them, what is it that attracts me, I just know I do like them, a lot!  When we take long drives I always admire the scenery and the elegant looking stick dinosaurs.

I think photographers like them too, it is so easy to find beautiful landscape and sunset photos with one or two power lines dominating the composition of the photo.

Who would think that something that can ruin a perfect landscape composition, or something ugly could be made to look beautiful. We might prefer they were not there….but they do offer a beautiful symmetry in our vast landscapes and I always take a few pics.

This was painted from one of my cell phone photos – a trip down to Cape Town with my boy ♥

I am in it with all my heart

In March I blogged about my new role at work and leap of faith. It was a brave move into the unknown…Know Your Worth

It’s nearly the end of the year and here I am, I’m still in the gallery. I can’t believe I have survived this long. I didn’t doubt myself but somehow, I just thought that I would quietly disappear back into the mundane old self.

I’m still there, I’m still braving this double role (double hating as they call it)

What I have learned so far…a list because I like making lists…

Pros

  • More money – nope not in my case, it’s like two for the price of one. Two jobs one salary
  • Security – definitely, when we could be faced with losing our jobs due to cuts having two is like having a piggy bank
  • Freedom – this role gives me some emotional benefits, sense of belonging, not just being wall paper
  • New skills – yes! I am always learning in both roles, obviously more in the new role as it is all still a bit unfamiliar. But most definitely lots of new skills and learning for me
  • Confidence – in myself, yes! There is that great feeling of accomplishment. I am doing something that will push me further in a space that I love

Cons

  • Time – time flies by quickly and I need more hours to get to just half of my to-do-list. Honestly speaking I never had time when I had just the one role. So, how does that work?
  • Stress – dealing with two completely different jobs and people at the same time can be overwhelming. It’s more overwhelming than stressful. I get to scream, and I can eat a whole packet of chips in the office with no one saying a thing because no one is watching. Which is great!
  • No extra money – nope I don’t get extra money
  • Recognition – waiting….

 

Tips for making it work

  • Protecting both jobs, trying not to let one role intrude on the other one
  • Quality of performance from me the person they know in both roles
  • Regular check-ins with the three bosses
  • Regular catch-ups with the special people in my work life that know the challenges I face and keep me sane ♥

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Potato, potato, ching chong tomato!

How do you answer when someone asks you: “What’s on your mind?” How do you answer when someone is trying to get all deep and philosophical and asks: “But how are you, really?”

I never know what to say and my reply depends on who is asking, why they are asking, and how much time & energy and emotion I want to put into it.

Saying exactly what I mean isn’t something I am good at. Sometimes it’s yes just to please someone else and end my ordeal quickly. Sometimes I say I understand when I really don’t have a clue, but I say it just so I don’t look ignorant. And sometimes I just hold back from saying anything at all.

But there are some very good reasons for not holding back and for actually speaking your mind. You could just get what you want without sounding demanding. If you are being asked maybe it’s a good thing to say what your needs are, you might just end up being happier.

When someone asked me today; “what’s on your mind?” I simply replied potato, potato, ching chong tomato only because that was the last silly thing I had seen on Facebook. This didn’t solve anything but it did make both of us happier. We burst into laughter, the moment broke my frown and we both burst into spontaneous conversation about everything frustrating & annoying at work and also about everything funny & fuzzy in our lives.

So….moral of the story is, if you are going to be real and really say what is on your mind or give some weird answer like potato, potato, ching chong tomato that is ok as long as you end up feeling lighter and happier.

Or you could just say porn – that should stop people from asking!

 

 

Looking Back on 2018

What a tough and crazy year this was, looking forward to starting all over again. Fresh start

What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?

I learned to make vegan galette (trust me this is delicious) attempted a not bad vegan tiramisu a few times. Painted in watercolours and learned to knit  

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

No, but then I didn’t make any resolutions at all for this year.

How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At home, family dinner…early to bed

Did anyone close to you die?

Yes, I lost two friends this year

What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

What date from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

4 July and 14 December – graduation of both my boys

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Both my boys graduated! I’m soooo proud of them, the one with his honours the other one his masters

What was your biggest failure?

I failed in my faith

Did you suffer illness or injury?

Migraines. I started keeping a daily diary of everything I eat and what happens during the day. I have a scale of how bad the headaches are where I record the pain levels

What was the best thing you bought?

A green dress and a jumper suit (also in green) 😊

Where did most of your money go?

Bills, bills, bills. And timeshare, we bought timeshare this year

What song will always remind you of 2018?

Feeling You by Mi Casa and Darling by Majozi

What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I had danced more and laughed a whole lot more

What do you wish you’d done less of?

I cried, like a lot. I also cursed just as much

What were your favourite TV shows?

If they let me watch TV at home, it’s Masterchef Australia

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I still hate the same person of last year

What was the best book you read?

The Tattooist of Auschwitz, An Elephant in My Kitchen, The Masterpiece, The Little Shop of Happy Ever After

What was your greatest musical discovery?

Meant To Be – Bebe Rexha

What was your favourite film of this year?

Wonder & The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society

What did you do on your birthday

Family lunch and lots of spoils

What kept you sane?

ART class. Me time – reading – and the chats with my sister and two cousins. We have a WhatsApp group and talk to each other almost daily I can’t live without those chats and laughs

Who do you miss?

My sister

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018

Life takes some unexpected turns, last year was hard, this year was harder and more painful, how we handle these situations either make or break us. The hardships and disappointments are lessons, I just need to remember that God is in control all the time.

Breathe. Just breathe. Pray and have a little faith…♥

This year may all your wishes and dreams come true….

Looking back 2017 

Gratitude Jar 2018

 

This was a damn long year, it was one of the worst starts I could have ever imagined. On day one I was already crying and begging for it to end.

It was a harsh year of pain but I guess it was one where I grew the most. I made it through each day with a lesson of some kind, whether I liked it or not each day was a new lesson.

Despite all the hardships I filled my glass jar with so many things to be grateful for and of course it’s beautiful and bountiful. I feel blessed.

And so I will take a deep breath and enter into 2019 on a positive note, with hope and confidence….

In everything give thanks. 1 Thes 5:18

My 2017 Jar  ♥ ♥ ♥