I’ve been quiet for so long….

I’ve been quiet for so long….I don’t even know what to say. I have no idea why, I haven’t read any blogs haven’t posted anything in so so long. I haven’t even prepared any of my own blog posts in ages! I used to have some saved and ready to be published, there was always something small saved up.

I feel terrible and almost guilty.

Today was a public holiday in SA and tomorrow I will be home (yeah) happy dance, so it’s a nice long weekend and so it’s catch up time.

I’m back! I’m here!

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You’ve been gone so long from all that you know. It’s been shuffled aside as you bask in the glow. All the beautiful strangers who whisper your name, do they fill up the emptiness?

 

Ramblings and pecan nuts

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It is necessary to write, if the days are not to slip emptily by. How else, indeed, to clap the net over the butterfly of the moment? For the moment passes, it is forgotten; the mood is gone; life itself is gone. That is where the writer scores over his fellows: he catches the changes of his mind on the hop – Vita Sackville-West

I’ve been thinking about this quote a lot, for many reasons, one of them is the blogging. I haven’t blogged for ages. Sometimes I feel guilty as if someone was depending on it and waiting to read something from me. Sometimes not thinking about it at all.

There have been opportunities and many topics on my mind too. But that’s the thing the moment has passed so now it seems pointless to talk or write about them. I let the butterfly go!

It’s quite alright, what would I do with those huge butterflies anyway?

  1. The current politics and what’s going on lately in SA
  2. Some religious issues and wars that have been in the news
  3. All sorts of other crazy things going on around us which actually just end up being political too
  4. And why on earth are pecan nuts so damn expensive?

I had opinions strong ones about all the news articles and conversations going on in media forums and sometimes in the office but these were just butterflies moths that I didn’t want to catch….and I let it all go. So now it’s pointless, really, the moment has passed. And that’s ok, I feel better for it.

I do have some real butterflies saved, I started them but some are not finished and I’m not ready to click “post” yet

  1. The story of me – that’s a nice one but I need a photo of my big thighs and stretch marks and have not asked anyone to take it
  2. I was born to be a mother – this was meant to be posted on mother’s day but I have not finished it
  3. My selfie, my self-portrait – well that’s because I’m not 100% sure it looks like me, although I did paint the double chin
  4. Dream. Starts with the letter Z – this is still a dream and when it’s close to reality maybe then I will post it

Anyway this is just random ramblings about me, I love to blog and don’t do it regularly because some things are hard to share, and other times because it is just better to let the moment go….and once you let it go then you can’t go back. The butterfly of the moment has gone and the mood has passed.

For now I hope to come home in the evenings with a little bit of good energy for a blog post now and then. First I need to finish the ones that are saved in draft file and hurry up already.

Seriously now, why are pecan nuts so expensive? Why?

In the beginning…What I have learned

Day 31: (Bonus topic) What I have learned from the Writers Bootcamp Challenge
In the beginning…

It was just something I wanted to try out. It is more serious now. I answered some questions the other day on blogging –

What made you start blogging? I was home (6 weeks forced holiday) recovering from a hysterectomy and was very bored with TV and I started reading blogs (mainly of ladies healing from hysterectomy and other more serious illness and their journey) I thought I’d just write about my pain and how I survived the op and all the negative emotions that I was going through at the time….turned out something completely different

What has blogging taught you? Maybe I am a bit more honest with myself, I am shy and tend to hide a lot and I admire people who put their feelings out there, and really write from the heart. No fear! I don’t always do that, but have learnt to be a bit more honest with myself and my feelings when I write. It’s a long and hard process though

What do you avoid blogging about?  🙂  Exactly what I have just said my real feelings, what hurts me most, I avoid that all the time, and sugar coat everything

Day 31 – What I have learned from the Writers Bootcamp Challenge: I have opened up more and wrote as if no one was reading it. So it was easier, although challenging, it felt good once I posted each blog. I Only posted it to twitter not FB – I don’t know why I did that?!!

Write from the heart – write like you paint. So I struggle with some paintings but I don’t give up and do always finish them. Even if it is not my favourite one that I show everyone and boast about, I still put it out there and I definitely complete it. So why not do the same with writing? Huh, miss P??

I’m going to try. And on that note, it’s time to take a break from the blogging and concentrate on painting!  Here’s a pic of the new one I started last night. It was an awesome painting day and I can’t wait for it to dry so I can add the little birds ….♥

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Me and my writing

Writersbootcamp on Day 30

Me and my writing, my writing and me…actually writing is easy, it’s easier than telling. I’m sort of like this…

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So writing is easy. If you need to let rip on and email and don’t know how to start? Talk to me. I’m good at that. Putting my thoughts down on paper is not the problem, it’s sharing them that becomes the problem. Then it’s back to the picture….lots on the page nothing out there. Sort of like my art, secretive to the last-minute, when it’s finished and if I’m happy then I share it  #timeforchange

I’m not a writer, I’m trying to be an artist. I get distracted easily when blogging and I find it difficult to write blog if I’m not using a keyboard, but I do make notes or write down ideas. I’m always storing ideas somewhere in my mind for later, I’m always doing that, it gives me a headache sometimes!! Too much stuff going on…

Politics and Drama

@Writersbootcamp – Day 28, Politics and Drama

I couldn’t think of a more horrible thing even if I tried hard enough. I like movies 🙂 but know nothing of drama. I hate politicians and know nothing about politics. So what do I write about?

Office Politics and Office Drama (I live work amongst some of the best)

I’m just the PA trying to fit in and grow into my position. You dear drama queen fresh out of varsity (or not so fresh) ready to climb the corporate ladder trying your best to impress are a royal pain in the ass. You still have lots to learn from me before you can tell me how to do my job. Oh that felt so good.

Ok so my suggestions to help avoid some politics and drama – from the PA perspective are like so:

  • Stop comparing your previous company to the new one you are in now (or go back to previous place, really)
  • Stop grumbling, say it loud or shut up. Whining and complaining about others is a big no-no
  • Stop rolling your eyes, just listen maybe the younger ones or the ones with less degrees do have a good solution or opinionbig sea
  • Being confident, does not mean you can be aggressive. Ai people, you are really hurting others with your forceful nature
  • Be nice to the person you are criticising and say it nicely
  • If you are too competitive they’re watching you. If you’re not competitive enough they’re talking about you. Ha ha, 😀 find the balance, Ok
  • Being a role model does not mean wearing spike heels and kicking people around, so be the humble person with the soft voice, not the loud office canary

It’s a big ocean out there, or jungle, the most colourful ones get eaten up if they are not careful. From me the PA that sometimes takes most abuse in the office, I’m acting like I’m ok, so please don’t interrupt my performance!!