Potato, potato, ching chong tomato!

How do you answer when someone asks you: “What’s on your mind?” How do you answer when someone is trying to get all deep and philosophical and asks: “But how are you, really?”

I never know what to say and my reply depends on who is asking, why they are asking, and how much time & energy and emotion I want to put into it.

Saying exactly what I mean isn’t something I am good at. Sometimes it’s yes just to please someone else and end my ordeal quickly. Sometimes I say I understand when I really don’t have a clue, but I say it just so I don’t look ignorant. And sometimes I just hold back from saying anything at all.

But there are some very good reasons for not holding back and for actually speaking your mind. You could just get what you want without sounding demanding. If you are being asked maybe it’s a good thing to say what your needs are, you might just end up being happier.

When someone asked me today; “what’s on your mind?” I simply replied potato, potato, ching chong tomato only because that was the last silly thing I had seen on Facebook. This didn’t solve anything but it did make both of us happier. We burst into laughter, the moment broke my frown and we both burst into spontaneous conversation about everything frustrating & annoying at work and also about everything funny & fuzzy in our lives.

So….moral of the story is, if you are going to be real and really say what is on your mind or give some weird answer like potato, potato, ching chong tomato that is ok as long as you end up feeling lighter and happier.

Or you could just say porn – that should stop people from asking!

 

 

Know your worth

A few months ago I took this leap, it was a giant leap for me. The quiet, nervous, insecure and sometimes funny and noisy girl in the office put her hand up.

And so I started another job, I still do the same old job which is still pretty cool and demanding, just that now I have second role in the organisation – one that is close to my heart.

I now work in an art gallery too!

That’s just the best thing to say it literally made me smile as I typed it out.

So what does that mean for me and my career and my passion for art?

Well it’s more work, it’s demanding and sometimes it’s overwhelming.  Like juggling or chasing my tail. But I’m loving every moment of it. I don’t know why and I don’t know how but almost fours months into it and I am coping and managing it.

What this means for my art life is that I get to feed my creative soul; I am surrounded by beautiful art work all day long. Inspiration inhaling – not to copy them but to learn from them. Every day that I take a walk and look at the same paintings I see something different. It doesn’t matter if I paint a painting I’ve seen or my own painting twice as long as I use my voice to paint my story and my feelings.

I also get to control my environment, my space and to feed my imagination.

This journey has taken me out of my comfort zone into an unfamiliar space. A friend called me brave and daring when I told her last year what I was about to start. Me… being brave?!

I haven’t felt like this in a long time…

Today I feel confident and proud of what I have achieved in these four months, the progress has been slow but I know I bring years of calm experience, knowledge in dealing difficult situations and people. Work ethics, loyalty & perseverance. And I know I my worth.

In the words of one of my favorite artists

The day I started A World of Possibilities 

Looking Back on 2018

What a tough and crazy year this was, looking forward to starting all over again. Fresh start

What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?

I learned to make vegan galette (trust me this is delicious) attempted a not bad vegan tiramisu a few times. Painted in watercolours and learned to knit  

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

No, but then I didn’t make any resolutions at all for this year.

How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At home, family dinner…early to bed

Did anyone close to you die?

Yes, I lost two friends this year

What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

What date from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

4 July and 14 December – graduation of both my boys

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Both my boys graduated! I’m soooo proud of them, the one with his honours the other one his masters

What was your biggest failure?

I failed in my faith

Did you suffer illness or injury?

Migraines. I started keeping a daily diary of everything I eat and what happens during the day. I have a scale of how bad the headaches are where I record the pain levels

What was the best thing you bought?

A green dress and a jumper suit (also in green) 😊

Where did most of your money go?

Bills, bills, bills. And timeshare, we bought timeshare this year

What song will always remind you of 2018?

Feeling You by Mi Casa and Darling by Majozi

What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I had danced more and laughed a whole lot more

What do you wish you’d done less of?

I cried, like a lot. I also cursed just as much

What were your favourite TV shows?

If they let me watch TV at home, it’s Masterchef Australia

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I still hate the same person of last year

What was the best book you read?

The Tattooist of Auschwitz, An Elephant in My Kitchen, The Masterpiece, The Little Shop of Happy Ever After

What was your greatest musical discovery?

Meant To Be – Bebe Rexha

What was your favourite film of this year?

Wonder & The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society

What did you do on your birthday

Family lunch and lots of spoils

What kept you sane?

ART class. Me time – reading – and the chats with my sister and two cousins. We have a WhatsApp group and talk to each other almost daily I can’t live without those chats and laughs

Who do you miss?

My sister

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018

Life takes some unexpected turns, last year was hard, this year was harder and more painful, how we handle these situations either make or break us. The hardships and disappointments are lessons, I just need to remember that God is in control all the time.

Breathe. Just breathe. Pray and have a little faith…♥

This year may all your wishes and dreams come true….

Looking back 2017 

Gratitude Jar 2018

 

This was a damn long year, it was one of the worst starts I could have ever imagined. On day one I was already crying and begging for it to end.

It was a harsh year of pain but I guess it was one where I grew the most. I made it through each day with a lesson of some kind, whether I liked it or not each day was a new lesson.

Despite all the hardships I filled my glass jar with so many things to be grateful for and of course it’s beautiful and bountiful. I feel blessed.

And so I will take a deep breath and enter into 2019 on a positive note, with hope and confidence….

In everything give thanks. 1 Thes 5:18

My 2017 Jar  ♥ ♥ ♥

A girl and her manatee

To end off the year….I finished off with a special project – a manatee!

They are little big sea creatures, related to elephants of all things, because they have tiny nails at the end of each flipper, similar to an elephant’s toenails. Gentle and slow moving, they spend most of their time eating and resting. My kind of creature.

Sometimes called sea cows, fully aquatic veggie eating sweet looking creatures. The manatee has been linked to folklore of mermaids. How lucky you are to be compared to a mermaid.

That’s the end of 2018 paintings for me, this was a gift for a future veterinary doctor and saying that sounds good too….

                                                         

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