I am in it with all my heart

In March I blogged about my new role at work and leap of faith. It was a brave move into the unknown…Know Your Worth

It’s nearly the end of the year and here I am, I’m still in the gallery. I can’t believe I have survived this long. I didn’t doubt myself but somehow, I just thought that I would quietly disappear back into the mundane old self.

I’m still there, I’m still braving this double role (double hating as they call it)

What I have learned so far…a list because I like making lists…

Pros

  • More money – nope not in my case, it’s like two for the price of one. Two jobs one salary
  • Security – definitely, when we could be faced with losing our jobs due to cuts having two is like having a piggy bank
  • Freedom – this role gives me some emotional benefits, sense of belonging, not just being wall paper
  • New skills – yes! I am always learning in both roles, obviously more in the new role as it is all still a bit unfamiliar. But most definitely lots of new skills and learning for me
  • Confidence – in myself, yes! There is that great feeling of accomplishment. I am doing something that will push me further in a space that I love

Cons

  • Time – time flies by quickly and I need more hours to get to just half of my to-do-list. Honestly speaking I never had time when I had just the one role. So, how does that work?
  • Stress – dealing with two completely different jobs and people at the same time can be overwhelming. It’s more overwhelming than stressful. I get to scream, and I can eat a whole packet of chips in the office with no one saying a thing because no one is watching. Which is great!
  • No extra money – nope I don’t get extra money
  • Recognition – waiting….

 

Tips for making it work

  • Protecting both jobs, trying not to let one role intrude on the other one
  • Quality of performance from me the person they know in both roles
  • Regular check-ins with the three bosses
  • Regular catch-ups with the special people in my work life that know the challenges I face and keep me sane ♥

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Know your worth

A few months ago I took this leap, it was a giant leap for me. The quiet, nervous, insecure and sometimes funny and noisy girl in the office put her hand up.

And so I started another job, I still do the same old job which is still pretty cool and demanding, just that now I have second role in the organisation – one that is close to my heart.

I now work in an art gallery too!

That’s just the best thing to say it literally made me smile as I typed it out.

So what does that mean for me and my career and my passion for art?

Well it’s more work, it’s demanding and sometimes it’s overwhelming.  Like juggling or chasing my tail. But I’m loving every moment of it. I don’t know why and I don’t know how but almost fours months into it and I am coping and managing it.

What this means for my art life is that I get to feed my creative soul; I am surrounded by beautiful art work all day long. Inspiration inhaling – not to copy them but to learn from them. Every day that I take a walk and look at the same paintings I see something different. It doesn’t matter if I paint a painting I’ve seen or my own painting twice as long as I use my voice to paint my story and my feelings.

I also get to control my environment, my space and to feed my imagination.

This journey has taken me out of my comfort zone into an unfamiliar space. A friend called me brave and daring when I told her last year what I was about to start. Me… being brave?!

I haven’t felt like this in a long time…

Today I feel confident and proud of what I have achieved in these four months, the progress has been slow but I know I bring years of calm experience, knowledge in dealing difficult situations and people. Work ethics, loyalty & perseverance. And I know I my worth.

In the words of one of my favorite artists

The day I started A World of Possibilities 

A girl and her manatee

To end off the year….I finished off with a special project – a manatee!

They are little big sea creatures, related to elephants of all things, because they have tiny nails at the end of each flipper, similar to an elephant’s toenails. Gentle and slow moving, they spend most of their time eating and resting. My kind of creature.

Sometimes called sea cows, fully aquatic veggie eating sweet looking creatures. The manatee has been linked to folklore of mermaids. How lucky you are to be compared to a mermaid.

That’s the end of 2018 paintings for me, this was a gift for a future veterinary doctor and saying that sounds good too….

                                                         

♥ ♥ ♥

 

Patience

Patience is a person’s ability to wait for something or to endure something tedious…like watching paint dry.  

I have been painting for a few years and in all this time I have only once painted a watercolour. I must be honest that when I look at it I can see my pieces and I can see all the large ones that my then teacher painted for me. So although I remember it has being hard and frustrating I do also remember that it is a very beautiful and rewarding art form.  

After my Frida, I decided to play with watercolours. It really was playing, watching the water spread and dry and just seeing where it would go.

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The paper is not watercolour quality it was just a normal sketch pad and the paints were an old school set. So of course the quality is affected quite a lot by these two being inferior and then there’s me!  

Impatient, thinking and painting as if I was holding an oil brush in my hand and trying to mix  watercolours as if they were oils. 

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So needless to say some times it was frustrating but it did teach me to breathe….inhale and exhale, S L O W L Y …Sometimes I just scribbled with the brush

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Oh Frida

Oh Frida.  I admire her for her bravery, she displayed her pain and frustrations openly, she was troubled and criticised most of her life.  Such a uniquely beautiful woman. So I attempted to paint this art icon. I know this is nothing like Frida not even close, but it was fun to paint her and while I painted I read about her life in an attempt to get to know a bit about this extraordinary woman.

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“Nothing is absolute. Everything changes, everything moves, everything revolves, everything flies and goes away.” – Frida Kahlo