Breathe and sigh

10299532_10152364643614350_776736122370803520_nTwo weeks in a row I almost stayed in bed. Just wasn’t feeling up to people, talking and things…

But you know I’m so glad now that I did get up and get out, two Sabbaths filled with abundant blessings. I’m in awe of how some things just fall in place, the people who touch you, the music and the morning’s sermon. It is not coincidence it’s all too perfect to be coincidence.

When your spirit is down and you feel like giving up and like you are so far away from Him. He sends His soft touch in different ways. I am so grateful that I did get up and go to church it is there in some quiet place or moment that God chose to touch me. These verses really awakened something these past two weeks

He counts the number of the stars; He calls them all by name. Psalm 147:4

For as the heavens are high above the earth, So great is His mercy toward those who fear Him. Psalm 103:11

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14

Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my meditation. Give heed to the voice of my cry, My King and my God, for to You I will pray. Psalm 5:1-2

Sitting on the outside looking in; this is what I heard and what has touched me. I am glad I did go to church, it was good for the soul and I am happy and at peace. It is here that I can press the panic button, and someone is right at my side. I breathe a sigh of relief and am so grateful for some privileges.

Hope you’ve had a Blessed Sabbath too ♥


Listen for His voice


If you have a website or blog page you can see how many hits you get. How many visitors and followers you have and where the visitors come from. I can do the same thing on my blog page. It even shows me which word was used in the search engine – that got the visitor to hit my page. If you are a follower, you will receive an email when I post something, you can read it quickly in your mail box and just as quickly press delete. Or you can actually click-through and visit my page and engage a bit by commenting, liking and looking at the gallery of my paintings.

Today I heard a sermon where my friend used those visits on a website and compared them to the times where God tries to talk to us. This is not his sermon but I have taken that bit of his example for this huge piece in my life.

Am I listening when He talks to me? Do I engage in conversation and let Him stay a bit longer to visit and live with me? Or do I just look at the stats page and carry on with my busy life? I think the answer is ‘no’ to all of these.

I am so terribly busy and preoccupied with everything and anything that I have become a bit self-sufficient and self-satisfied. I have Him visiting my website so many times, there are millions of hits on my page and I don’t get excited about it the way a blogger usually is excited about the stats page.

My site stats shows – best ever 145 views – I know exactly which post that was for. Oh if I should check my real webpage the one where God visits there will be a million hits and views and even messages, but they remain unanswered. And maybe on some days his visits even doubled, but I wont remember why…what happened on that day, what was I posting?

What a bad person I must be to ignore something like that. That little graph is always high up there and the words on the search engine were ‘Paula, special daughter’.  A visitor right from heaven every single day a million times a day and I have not been listening. I’m so busy I can’t hear His voice.

it is time to stop, and in between some deep breaths and many sighs; to just be still and check my stats page. Really check it properly, listen! I know He is leaving messages for me all the time. It is time to open my mind and heart to His messages. I have not been listening for so long….