Exhale…

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I am wistful for a salty kiss, sticky arms and the scent of the ocean.  For a damp towel and the foam of the white-capped waves, for my heart to beat with the ocean. I am longing for that  immense blue and longing to look into the depth and horizon and be blinded by the sun hitting the ocean.

Because I’m always dreaming of being near the sea I painted this for my bedroom, so I can lie in bed with my book and dream more pretending to be on the beach ❤

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Starry Night

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Ah but Vincent, everything in this painting is more than a little good, I love all of it, and it has a special meaning and says a lot for me…it really does.

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Good night my starry starry night ♥☼♥☼

 

 

On my easel

This quote from Pablo Picasso, always makes me laugh 😀

“I hate flowers.. I paint them because they’re cheaper than models and they don’t move.”

Me, I love flowers and I think they’re easier to paint than models….except maybe 16 proteas!

When I finally finished the proteas I didn’t quite know what to paint next.  It was like artist block but a million times worse.  During the protea painting things were a bit of a mess.  They had been for a few months, I painted slowly and so many times I didn’t even paint I just got the brushes dirty and there was no progress.  I cried sometimes not about the painting, well sometimes it was, but mostly I cried about this thing called life.  And I struggled for months.  Someone said to me when I mentioned my struggle that it was “Just a bit of life that made it hard. New painting, new chapter”

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And so it was for this one.  New canvas.  New painting and this was a transformation into something new, feeling better, healing and really painting again.

Whether we like to believe it or not, our moods effect everything we do.  And everything we do affect our moods.

Artists also get ‘writers block’ or ‘artists block’, our ideas seem to run dry.  It’s something that worries any creative person.  Bringing inspiration back requires more than just creative exercises and ideas, and fresh new places.  One needs a bit of fun, a bit of love, some peace and happiness in life too.

It is back, I am back where I used to be and I’m so grateful for that

There is love on my easel ❤

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The Proteas

This was so hard, I started it last year and finally finished it now in June!! Wow, why so long?

I don’t know it’s part of my art struggle and life struggle I guess…maybe I expected too much of myself, and I exaggerated my capability. I was slow, I wasted a lot of time in art class and procrastinated and I also had many missed hours.  Life just got in the way and it certainly affected my creativity.

BUT and this is a huge, but – I finished it. I never gave up although I wanted to many times.

Sixteen proteas (what on earth was I thinking) and lots and lots of greenery intertwined and arranged in a blue bowl and here it is.

Ta da – The Proteas

*sigh*

*relief*

 

 

 

 

 

This art year was messy

This year was a really bad for me, in many ways, actually it was quite crap. And it certainly shows in my art. If I compare to past years I have painted the least this year. I also ended my art year with incomplete work which I’m not crazy about, but I guess at least I know what I’m starting with in 2017.

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So this one ↑ …. this one was a real failure, it was abandoned. Incomplete and will never be finished. I don’t like it at all, I just hit a wall and it hasn’t been covered in white or black because I haven’t had time. I guess it was a bad choice, I don’t quite know.

And then this one …..

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It feels a bit like an unrealistic high expectation. Is it? I don’t know, I hope not. It’s a challenge for sure, it’s going to take long, it’s huge, too many proteas…I don’t know what I was thinking. But I’m looking forward to finishing it.