Self-portrait

I read an online article some time ago, one of those about self-discovery, become a better person kind of thing, there was a list of about 20 things to do to discover yourself.  I remember this sentence well – let go of the need to be loved by all.

I can’t remember anything else, just this sentence stuck with me.  And ever since that day I have told myself this a few times.  Just like I don’t love or like everyone out there, I guess it is quite a natural and normal thing that I won’t be liked or loved by everyone I meet or interact with.

So just let go of the need to be loved by all! Period.

Great now that I’ve told myself that…let me talk about my painting.  I finished this one some time ago and never posted it because I just thought it was not good enough. It’s all wrong and she does not look like me.  Enter me saying – whatever possibly rolling my eyes!! 

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This was a huge step forward for me, to paint a self-portrait. It was a good learning too, both in art and internally for myself and my insecurities. It’s time to just share it.

I’m so glad I painted it, I’m also surprised I finished it.

Collection of quotes I love, old blog posts of mine about my boys and some bible verses, and things the boys say

Collection of quotes I love, old blog posts of mine about my boys and some bible verses, and things the boys say

Putting some detail down, my drawing

Putting some detail down, my drawing

This is a science you know, making sure the drawing is correct the lines where your lip ends and middle of the eye…checking all the time that the proportions and distances are right

This is a science you know, making sure the drawing is correct the lines where your lip ends and middle of the eye…checking all the time that the proportions and distances are right

Completed self portrait

Completed self-portrait

This was the first, probably not the last time, I don’t know…..although I am not 100% happy with the result, I am 100% happy I did this. I learned so much through this process, the painting is signed so technically it is finished, but it does not mean I can’t try to fix the things I’m unhappy about. For now it will have to do ♥

Sharing my ‘selfie’

I don’t normally do this… SHARING

When I’m painting I don’t share my progress on FB or with anyone else, except the people in art class, no one really sees what’s going on and how I’m coming along. Until the last day when I finally sign the painting, only then do I post a pic on FB or blog about it.  But this one is a bit different. I though I was crazy to even attempt it, but the idea had been on mind for so long. I forgot about it and then this year decided this is it I’m going to do a self-portrait!!

So it’s a little different from the conventional self portraits, my one involves a bit of mixed media and it started with sticking pieces of paper with quotes and words.

This is what I had to work with…something I found and I immediately fell in love with this pic. I just didn’t want to paint her

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So in came ‘me’ and the pieces of paper are quotes that I just love and resonate with, words that have special meaning and somehow affect me and appeal to me. Some of them in a personal or emotional way.
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Some pieces are from old blogs posts (the ones about my boys) and then the titles are a mix of things special to me. Little bit of tearing here and there and they were all randomly glued down
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and then came the drawing….this was hard!! And not my favorite part. But it had to be as perfect as possible, at least in the size of eyes and distance of eyes, nose and mouth etc. It’s quite complicated and a bit of a ‘science’
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…and there you have it! Now for the painting and the continued tweaking and science behind the distance of all things facial 🙂 I have definitely learned a few interesting things…Like did you know that the distance between your eyes (middle of your face) or the bridge of the nose is the same size in centimeters as the size of your eyes? (not sure if I’m explaining it correctly) but anyway I have started painting and hope to finish my selfie soon. Hope it looks like me when I’m done!

And so here is my first layer of color. Will share the final painting as soon as it’s done

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